Showing posts with label Dare to Share. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Dare to Share. Show all posts

Saturday, October 22, 2011

Doctor G

"Are you sure we can park here?" I turn to Bry adjusting my dress in the car as we park. "The parking around here has so many rules." I add.
"Yes, we can. Don't worry, we have plenty of time" he responds as he successfully parallel parks.
The butterflies have taken refuge in my stomach as the motor stops purring. Removing the keys from the ignition, he tosses them into my lap.
"Put them in your purse, would ya?" he says, slamming the car door.
I can't help but notice the throngs of people passing on the street, as I step out of the car onto the city sidewalk. The need for directions is moot, as many are on the same pilgrimage.
Families walk, pride across their face as they pass the regular workday commuters consumed by cell phones and routine. I hold back the urge to grab a passing stranger and share my excitement and pride. The feeling is overwhelming, as we make our way down the cement sidewalk.
Thirteen years of primary schooling, then four years of undergraduate work, one year of post-baccalaureate, then four years of medical school and now here we are waiting for the stroll across the stage and the piece of paper.
This final act changing the Miss to Doctor.
Reaching the front of the Center, our final destination, I attempt to scan the crowd for a familiar face. Unfortunately, my vision is overwhelmed.
"Jac" I hear the disembodied familiar voice yell. "We're over here."
It is in these situations I am thankful for tall and big husband and he easily located my family. Walking forward, the crowd appears to part as I follow close behind.
"Can you believe this crowd?" my mom laments. Her anxiety reads across her face. "It's going to be hard to find seats."
"I'm not worried" I say, "We've got dad on our side!"
They laughs and nod in agreement, then continue to wait.
As the doors open and the throngs gravitate to the doors and stairways leading to the balcony.
"Keep your dad in sight" my mom insists, as he makes his way through the crowd. Easily he finds his way to the front of the crowd, going up the stairs, he disappears into the auditorium.
Holding on to each other, we patiently follow behind. Slowly ascending the staircase, and entering into the balcony,  my father's voice echos.
"Over here! I've got enough seats for us all". he screams across the collection of rows.
The heat rises up my cheeks as I navigate the rows to the seats my father has secured. Embarrassment is an emotion he seems to lack.
Sitting down,  I have the first opportunity to read the program. My fingers trace the embossed logo. College of Medicine Commencement the program reads.
Tears fill my eyes, as I open the beige pages. Following along the rows of names, I search. Listed under those who secured the requirements for medical doctorate, it is there in black and white.

My little sister is a doctor.

The graduation ceremony is a blur. During the various speeches and honorary doctorates I am thankful for the stash of mints held in my purse, and decide against a game of hangman with Bry at one exceedingly long and boring speech. After  two hours, the announcement rings that hooding will begin, and a buzz overtakes the crowd. The time has arrived.
I steal a glance at my parents. Dabbing her eyes with a tissue, the tears well up easily today for my mother. The emotions are overwhelming.  While he finds himself in a precarious position over the side of the balcony. My father often attempts to find the perfect place for a photo, and today is no different.
Looking down into the sea of black robes, I spy her curly hair tamed under the black cap. She looks up to us, and for a moment, her smile meets mine. 
Walking across the stage, her name is announced. Arriving before her professor, she turns and faces the audience. The green hood is placed over her shoulders.





This post was initially written June 2011, and edited today. The topic "Success" was the inspiration for this week's Dare to Share link at the Lightening and the Lightning Bug. Immediately, my mind returned to this moment, and the pride I felt as I watched my little sister graduate medical school.

Friday, September 2, 2011

Thirty-Three

Thirty-Three, Yippee!
Here it is, the night of my birthday. I've never been someone to hide my age. I feel like what's the point? I have nothing to be shamed of,
I'm 33!

In honor this new year I've decided list form would be the best and so I offer:

33 reasons this year will rock!
1. I got to celebrate with two birthday cakes. Can one think of a better excuse to eat cake then these two delicious options? 

Crumbs gigantic cupcake in
peanut butter & chocolate
Thanks Steve & Lynsay!

Yummy Vanilla with to die for chocolate chip filling

2. Since Mo is three, birthdays are a big deal. She has be insistent that Bry plan a Sesame theme party for my friends complete with a moonbounce. I still don't have the heart to tell her it isn't happening.

3. Since Mo is three, birthdays are a big deal. She wished me happy birthday at least forty times yesterday. 

4. Maeve's food allergies seem to be calming down a bit. Perhaps a little cow's milk may be in the near future.

5. Our garage roof is fixed! No more leaky, leaky during rain and no more prayers and worry that heavy snow during winter would make it collapse. What screams "birthday" more then fixing a garage roof?

Isn't it lovely?
6. I know, what's more "birthday"- a newly functioning stove! I mentioned it here. It's fixed now, which means baking & cooking can resume!
FIRE!

7. What's the birthday present that keeps giving? Why, a dishwasher of course! Our newest appliance was installed today as well. Our kitchen saw more traffic today then it's seen for a long time.
It's so shiny and pretty!
8. Pearl Jam 20 will make this year rock a little harder. 9.20.11

9. The Hunger Games on March 23. If you haven't read the series, I recommend it. While I realize it is considered young adult, it's got a fabulously addictive storyline, and I couldn't put it down.

10. Mo goes to school. My baby heads for her first day of school on Sept. 13. The education system will never be quite the same. Let me offer my formal apologies now in advance.

11. I will learn how to roast a chicken this year. Epic failure is an understatement thus far with this venture. Bry has commented that he did not think it was humanly possible to mess it up as much as I have. But this year, I will learn.

12. Halloween craziness will overtake us.
 I cannot wait, and still I debate whether to dress up with the girls this year.

13. Foo Fighters are on tour and I want need to see them live.

14. Mo gets to play soccer. So maybe it's not really full on game time live, she is ecstatic and Bry gets to be her coach. HA! Meanwhile Maeve & I will be watching, Bry attempt to coach a gaggle of 3 &4 yr olds.
Awesome!

15. Fifteen year class reunion in November. Since the rise of social networking, I have been reunited with more friends and classmates, which I think will help to make this years reunion far better then the yawn fest that was our ten year.

16. More writing for me, thanks to the inspiration from the lovely groups I have joined and the inspiration I have found every day.

17. Still no grey hair- Thanks for the great genes Mom & Mommom D!

18. Not your daughter's Jeans in my closet = less frump this year.

19. Holiday photo shoot with the fabulously talented Ashley Pierce Photography

20. I will host the Piergoi party I have talking about for the past few years. For my friends it will be BYORP- bring your own rolling pin!

21. Other peoples babies. Quite a few I am eagerly anticipating meeting.

22. Procrastination will stop and I will finally decorate the walls in Mo's bedroom.

23. The new episodes of my favorite shows. How I've missed: NCIS, Glee, Parenthood, Shameless, to name a few.

24. Confession, Maeve's birthday is still over four months away, and I've already started planning.

25. Confession 2: Mo's birthday is still over seven months away, and I've already started planning.

26. However, I haven't planned what we'll have for dinner this week. I am working on that one.

27. Crossing my fingers there's some wedding planning to help with this year. (No pressure!)

28. One Word: Swim

29. I will make more time for me this year.

30. I will make more time for "we" this year- as in Bry & I!

31. Another year older, doesn't that make me wiser?

32. Being able to watch the girls actually play together. It's honestly amazing to watch these two perfect little people interact together.

33. Besides the love of family and friends, I got the best gift yesterday. TWO full spa days. Now to check the calendar and decide when I need it the most.

And one reason why 32 went out with a bang:
I was the featured blogger this  past week on The Lightning and the Lightning Bug ! While it's picked by random selection, I still am quite proud of myself for this little accomplishment. There are some talented writers over there. Please check them out!

As of today, that's a pretty rocking way to start year 33!

Since last week we talked about Loss for this week's Dare to Share Link Up, we'd like for you to share a post that celebrates something. A birthday, a graduation, a great day, any happy event in your life. The post can be old or new, fiction or non-fiction, poetry or prose.
I discovered this weeks theme AFTER I wrote my birthday entry. Talk about perfect, right?

Saturday, August 27, 2011

Loss

Things have started to unravel.
It was only a matter of time.
Slowly,
Almost like a thief slipping in an open window,
It changed
Until it no longer could hold up its responsibilities. 
Waste.
As I deposited its contents in the garbage,
Salvaging what I could,
What was necessary,
Into the blue cooler,
The tears streamed down my face.



Damn Refrigerator!



Over $400, three days of  letting the fridge thaw then plugging it again, and a trip to the grocery store mid-week, our fridge is back in working order.
This bliss was short lived.
Not more then 72 hours later, our loss continued as our oven and cook top stopped working too. Another $400 and an additional wait for a part and visit left another hole in our wallet.
Loss.

This week's theme is "Loss." Now, you can take this prompt in any number of different directions. If you'd like, you can keep things light-hearted still and write about losing your best pen, or you can write about the loss of a pet or loved one. The beauty of these one word prompts is that you can take them almost anywhere

Saturday, August 20, 2011

To School

Three years and five months,
She has been by my side.
Together we have navigated the world,
Under my watchful eye,
Safe and secure
Buckled in
Carseat, Stroller, Cart.
Always no more then an arms length away.
With her I learned so much,
Every day, an education.
Milestones reached in my presence:
Rolling, Sitting, Crawling, Walking, Running.
Smiling, Babbling, Talking, Conversing.
A perfect little person.

I knew this time would come.
But never did I think, so quickly.

Worry overcomes me,
As my own insecurities emerge.
Will she be respectful?
Will she make friends?
Will she have fun?
Have I done enough to prepare her? 

Will I be okay?
What will I miss?
What will I miss?
What will I miss?
I don't want to miss a thing...and I will.

To school for the first time.
We both have some learning to do.


Since most of us have been going back to school (one way or another) the last couple of weeks, I'd like for this week's Dare to Share link up theme to be: Back to School. Share your fiction, nonfiction, and poetry about the time of year that kids dread and parents count down to! You can link to old posts or new.






Saturday, August 13, 2011

Another year older....wiser?

The Talking Heads have a song called Once in a Lifetime and these lyrics have been spinning around my head the past few day.
It has just hit me.
I am officially in my thirties.
I am a thirty something suburban housewife
And mother!
WTF?

And you may find yourself behind the wheel of a large automobile
And you may find yourself in a beautiful house, with a beautiful wife
And you may ask yourself-well...how did I get here?


Seriously, how did I get here?
I wonder when I became this grown-up who asks for gift certificates to Target and Lowes for her birthday?  Where are the nights out?
Where are the dinners?
The drinks?
The vacations?
When did I become a grown-up?

And you may ask yourself
This is not my beautiful house!
And you may tell yourself
How do I work this?
And you may ask yourself
Where is that large automobile?


"Life goes by quickly" my mother would lament.
I never really understood this until recently, as my mind holds tight to many memories.
The first day of high school, those jitters in my stomach still seem so fresh.
The khaki halter dress sticking to my sunburned back under my white graduation robe that date in June.
Piling into my parents minivan, heading to college. I remember walking into my first dorm room, staring at the photos of my soon to be roommate.
Meeting Bry for the first (technically second) time in the lobby of those dorms.
Parties, formals, trips to the bar.
Swim meets, Student teaching assignments, walks through the campus,
Bathing suits, warm ups, and acceptable teaching attire.
The black gown and piece of paper.
It seems like yesterday.
So vivid.
So clear.
So real.
But it was not.
It was 19 years since those first butterfiles the night before freshmen year of  high school.
15 years since that first ride through the campus gate.

When did I get old?
I don't feel that old.
I don't feel like I've changed that much since my time in college, (grant it my body looks a whole helluva lot different)

Can someone tell me when I became a grown-up?

And you may ask yourself
What is that beautiful house?
And you may ask yourself
Where does that highway go?
And you may ask yourself
Am I right? ...am I wrong?
And you may tell yourself
My god!...what have I done?


This post was intially written on September 3, 2009, exactly one day after I turned thirty-one. When I read this weeks "Dare to Share" link, immediately my mind came back here. I have updated and reworked some sections.
It’s that time again! Another Dare to Share Linkup! This week’s theme is music. We’d like you to share a post, new or old, that focuses on music in some way. You can post a poem, fiction, memory, or essay. Dare to Share is anything goes link up…as long as you stick to theme.


Saturday, July 23, 2011

Deliciousness

Her small hand reaches up to mine. We walk with a purpose down the boards. Her cadence broken every few steps with a skip.  The excitement builds.
A warm April afternoon.
Sunday.
Easter Sunday.
The unofficial start of summertime, as the boardwalk wakes from it's winter slumber.
Our new Easter ritual, not performed in Church, but rather here, next to the ocean.
The salty air blowing strands of her hair into her face, as her eyes focus on the goal.
Already the year since our last visit has magnified her growth. She was content sitting in the stroller, sucking her thumb, observing, next to her infant sister a mere twelve months prior, but now, the shoulder straps could not contain her.
Around, around, she went.
Firetrucks,
Airplanes,
Boats,
and
Jeeps.
Up and down and all around on the carousel.
Her fears conquered as she climbed the rope ladder, ran across the bridge, and descended the inflatable slide.
Toddler hood had escaped her sometime in this twelve month span.
Eloquence and fluency had replaced the babble.
Poise in place of immaturity.
Sometime over the past three years She had emerged, not a baby, but a little perfect person.
I held her hand tightly as our bodies navigate the crowd. Scanning, my eyes meet with a barrage of colorful signs.
Pizza!
Pretzels!
Fresh Squeezed Lemonade!
We continue on our quest. Our feet fall into a synchronized rhythm as we search.
The giggle meets the salty air, as she spies it and raises her hand.
"I see it Mama!" she yells, "I see ice cream!"


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This piece was inspired by the prompt: "Ice Cream!"

Saturday, July 2, 2011

Home

It took us a while to find this place.
An old house filled with character and charm.
A diamond in the rough, or a money pit, depending on the day.
A place with enough bedrooms for a family, but small enough to feel cozy.
The checklist was long, the search was wide.
"Too small" I would say.
"Too new" he would respond.
"Ah, definitely not!" we agreed.
Our poor realtor, nodding his head as we rushed through another,
and then another,
and then another.
Days turned to weeks,
Weeks turned to months,
and then by chance, we found it.
"We should check this place out" Bry muttered, "after all it's only two houses away from this open house".
It's not even a town we were considering.
I didn't even get to preview it online.
I don't think this could be it.
Walking in, I was ready to count it out, to consider it another "no".
Dingy pink walks met us as we walked in.
"This will be an easy." I thought.
Pocket doors, really?
Functioning?
"Look at the dining room" I blurted out, immediately attempting to quell my voice. "It's huge, and Tiffany blue!"
"Nothing paint couldn't fix" Bry said.
Thanksgiving dinner and birthday parties
The kids could easily sit here at the table doing homework.
"Why didn't they publicize the kitchen?" Bry asked.
Room enough for the six burner stove he always dreamed and an old white porcelain sink.
Don't get ahead of yourself
Photos of our family through the years would look fabulous up the stairs.
Coming to the top of the stairs, doors surrounded us.
Four bedrooms, one full bathroom.
Small enough to fit a crib and dresser, and have a cozy nursery.
Hardwoods and huge windows.
"Be sure to check out the third floor" the realtor instructed.
Up another flight of stairs to the hidden gem, a room the size of the second floor.
While the ceiling is dormered, it still is tall enough for us to walk.
The kids could have a fantastic playroom.
A backyard and front, ivy covered but the size was right.
Back to the front porch, a porch we ignored coming it.
Ceiling fans and lots of room.
We left, but the memory of that house stayed.

More houses came, but nothing compared.
We made an offer, but it didn't work out.
We walked away.

One month.

Two month.

"Are they still interested?" their realtor asked.

We signed and found our house.
We found our Home.

My dad and Mo on the front steps a few hours after we got the keys.

The stairway

The Tiffany Blue walls in the dining room

The third floor playroom on the day we closed
This post was inspired by a prompt from the Lightning and the Lightning Bug. This weekend's Dare to Share Link Up theme is For Love of Country. We'd love for you to share any patriotic posts or simply posts related to your country or home.